Grief and guilt are complicated companions on the journey through loss, especially when navigating the future. In this post, I reflect on the emotional challenges of honoring the children I’ve lost, while also facing the fear, guilt, and awkward moments that arise when sharing my story with others.

I started December exhausted, but excited for Xavier's first Christmas. I was looking forward to having the first normal Christmas with...

I bet you thought there were only three trimesters...well not many people talk about the fourth trimester which is the first 3 months...

The day has finally come! I can't believe I am sitting here right now with a sleeping baby next to me. It feels so surreal. Looking at...

It's been a while since I took the time to write a new blog and today I wanted to talk about something I like to call "infertility...

I have sadly been really slacking on my blog posts since announcing that we were finally pregnant but I am hoping to fix that now that I...

You'd think after 11 weeks that I would be used to it by now, yet here I am staring at those words on the screen thinking "is this really...

It's so interesting to me how fickle emotions can be sometimes...How easy it can be to tip the balance from having a perfectly fine,...

The question I addressed in my most recent video was a bit of a heavy one. The question asked when we would considering giving up the...

I’m living in my dreams, they keep me safe from reality. Locking away all thoughts of infertility. In my dreams, I am safe from pregnancy...

Rant Incoming: Nothing frustrates me more than the ever present waiting game of infertility. I'm usually a pretty patient person but the...

I was a bit nervous to post my most recent video showing snippets of my friends' and families' reactions to the pregnancy that we just...

It's really beginning to seem like the universe is out to get me. I just turned 30 on June 2 was very briefly given the beautiful early...

The video I posted today goes in depth into every penny we spent on fertility treatments up to this point and it's not a happy number. I...

Poke me once...shame on me, poke me twice...shame on you, poke me a million times: IVF My most recent video is about the entire process...

This post is a bit delayed, partly due to avoiding the internet altogether on Mother's Day and partly due to life getting busy and...

Today officially marks 2 years of trying with no success.

So, a lot of my blogs are going to be companion pieces to the videos I upload, except they are going to be the more raw unfiltered...

A reflection on the past two years and welcome to the site!